well done.

ive been really ill this weekend, alcohol poisoning! good effort.

friday night was crazy never drank so much in my life! i slept with the guy i liked and now were not talking, lifes class!

but most of all ive been throwing up alot, which gives me a good start to loosing weight again!
im going to weigh myself tomorrow morning and go from there. but definately no drink for a while!
xoxo

some people spend their whole life dreaming off success while others wake up and work hard at it!

LOST WEIGHT! i am now 127pounds!
lastnight i ssat and wrote out what i actually wanted to achieve and reasons why;
- go on a detox only drinking water
- yoga in the morning and before bed
- cut all the shit fast food
- walk as much as possible
-30 sit ups in the morning and 30 before bed, +10 more after every week
- try to cut the puring
- CW- 127 -125 -120 -115 -110 -105 -100 GW- 90 UGW- impossible.
- every goal weight = reward (not food obviously)

reasons to do this;
- look good with confidence
- can say 'i am thin'
-do something people say i cant do
- look good in everything
- bikinni body!
- people jealous of me instead of me jealous of people
- i would then be the tanned, thin, blonde girl!

what i want to look like;
- flat stomach
- gap thighs
- toned belly
- thin arms
- collar bones
- hip bones
-long hair
- perfect skin
- PERFECTION.

'it doesnt matter how slow you go, aslong as you dont stop.'

xoxo

i wonder how it feels to be irresistibly attractive.

no matter how much i try to drag myself away from all this, all i want to be is skinny for summer!

in fading, im broken inside.

doubt i could of had a worse week, do you ever get the feeling like everyone and everything hates you? i felt like this all week, so many people seemed to have ago, i just did everything wrong and i dont know what to do. i give up!

they never said it would be easy, just that it would be worth it.
i have two weeks off school and i want to go back thinner. im going to give it my all! i promise you that. my best friends at home in dubai while the boarding house is closed for the holidays, so i wont be out drinking our out for meals with her. i have absolutely nothing planned, theres parties over these holidays but i dont want to go because i want to go back and for it to be a shock. i need some diet plans and exercise plans quick! so anyone please help! and tell me how youre getting along? i could really do with all your support.

on a better note either this summer or next im going to australia to stay with my auntie for a month, i think i might go next, depends on how i feel closer to the time. this summers only 5 weeks but next will be 10 because of studie leave an everything..

stay strong lovelys xoxo

its just you and me, against the world, against ourselves.

sitting on my roof out my bedroom window, wondering what is going to happen next? what is going to go wrong? something has to just fuck everything up, ruin perfection. i live my life in a bubble at the moment just taking things as they come and just watching everyone elses life go by. i cant see danger, or anyone elses feelings, mind that i cant even see my own feelings, i dont even think i have any. i speak my mind so much, if i look at someone and the first thing that comes into my head i'll tell them what i think, i dont care who they are. i havent got on the scales, i dont really want to either.

i will waste away, this month.

i will. i will.
xoxo

where we go hardcore.

i cant beleive how long i havent posted in, ive became so rubbish at all this. this used to be like my life id sit on here for hours commenting and posting.
im dropping pounds like you wouldnt believe!
ive turned to purging again, which i promised myself i wouldnt because of my teeth! :( but if im loosing weight then its working. my lifes became so wild! im honestly out every weekend and if im not im thinking about when im next going to be out.
im going to try and keep you posted with everything and get back into this cause i used to be obsessed!
how is everyone doing?! stay strong girlies xoxo

life ain't no nintendo game, you dont get no second chances.

i dont know what to think, or who to believe. everything spun out of control and hit rock bottom. my only support is myself and i have to sort things out. once you hit rock bottom the only way is up, the only person who can sort it out is me, i either sort things out or stay at rock bottom. and rock bottom isnt a very nice place.
xoxo