I broke up with N, cause he asked to many questions about my past and things, i dont know i just felt like he knew to much. when i first broke up with him i felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, nowi dont i was crying before cause i was talking to his younger sister and she was like 'he isnt bothered tbh', when he'd been telling me how gutted he was and he really really liked me. if im honest, im gutted. i told everyone i was glad i did it, but im far from it.
on a better note, ive been eating alot less lately. less and less each day which is easy. i do miss fasting for days, but i dont miss the stomach cramps that i'd cry about for hours. tomorrows plan is to bullshit my day off school, cause its 2am right now and im sat doing an art essay that ive been doing for 11 hours! fuck my life. i have loads more work to do, and i honestly doubt i could face going in to school tomorrow, i think id break down. im planning on starting all the exercise i want to do this week, im trying to start everything slowly so i dont keep failing myself by eating. i will get there, no matter what it takes.
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